On this very rare occasion I am going to put up a picture of myself 😉 …but there is a reason. I have been following a very brave and courageous young lady on Instagram (@kimspiriert). She was fighting breast cancer and very sadly lost the battle on New Year’s Eve. This has moved me a lot. She was only 30 and so full of life and so many things she still wanted to do. She had over 100.000 followers on Instagram and managed to reach so many people.
Following her had led me to read many more Instagram feeds of people that have a lot of followers and the thing they all have in common is that they are very personal and they do post a lot of pictures of themselves. I am not saying they are self obsessed, I just noticed that they seem full of confidence, just like the woman I mentioned above.
Then I read an article in the magazine ‘Happiful’ by Callie Thorpe (@calliethorpe). This is also a very strong and inspiring woman. Callie is on the larger side, but so full of confidence, she shines. So I thought I should start posting more pictures of myself and try and become more confident, be brave. I did about three posts and then I lost my confidence. It felt like I was pretending to be somebody I am not. I posted something about this new ‘lipjuice’ I found in the body shop, or another post about how I hate my body.
I slept on it for a night and deleted the posts the next morning. This was and is just not me. I want to be a writer and capture the moment in words. What I was trying to do then, was to be liked by other people on Instagram to go and impress the masses and I realised that I wasn’t being true to myself. I actually felt embarrassed to have even posted the picture of myself. I am not really into makeup and clothes and I realised that that is ok. I am into books, reading and most of all writing. I am not saying that my posts are more impersonal, but I just don’t feel comfortable with posting pictures of myself. Maybe that is something I need to learn until then I will post pictures that inspire me to write something.