The winner takes it all

I haven’t written a blog in a while because I had a lot going on in my life. My husband and I are separating. I wasn’t sure whether to write something about it in a blog. At the moment I am in the process of moving my stuff out of the house. As I was driving along they played the ABBA song: The winner takes it all. Listening to the lyrics very carefully I could feel myself welling up with tears again, as I do so often lately. It made me think that there are no winners or losers when it comes to splitting up, not when it comes to emotions.

Although I was the one that ultimately said that I was unhappy, it still hurts a lot. It hurts to know that I hurt somebody else so deeply. Moving all of my stuff out of the house we have lived in for almost ten years, feels like I am taking my life apart, one piece at a time. And of course there have been happy times. Every now and again I come across a reminder of those as well.

There is also confusion and uncertainty. Am I doing the right thing? Am I leaving too soon? What comes next? But I can say for sure that there is no winner when it comes to splitting up. It just hurts. Maybe in a while I can reflect on this part of my life in a different way or go into more details. Right now I am finding it hard to find the right words.

9 thoughts on “The winner takes it all

  1. You only have one life, so why suffer. You are freeing yourself, and letting him go to find happiness.
    Divorce is painful, but emotions are transient, and you must do what is right for you.
    What advice would you have given to a friend in your position?
    One door is closing and another one will open. Embrace the adventure.

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  2. Thanks for sharing! It’s not easy to do in your situation. It’s hard to know what is right for you sometimes but you have to listen to your heart. Sometimes the Universe has something better in store for you that is not clear until much later! Be Strong!

    Perhaps you may enjoy my post for 4-5-18 – “Meant To Be’s” as well as some of my earlier posts.
    Chuck
    xoxo

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