Everything falls into place

My last post was about worrying too much. Today I learnt that everything falls into place just as it should be and all the worry in the world was for nothing.

This year has been very turbulent with many ups and downs. I finally found a ‘happy’ place in live and in love 😍 and it feels great.

After moving several times this year I have now found a new home with my new man. He is so supportive. I am a lucky 🍀 woman. My dream was to study more and gain a PhD and my new man has been encouraging me to apply. And I got accepted and my course is starting on the 27th of this month. Scary 😱 When I say he has been encouraging me, it was more like a good talking to, to stop wasting my life and use my skills 😊. He reads this blog and I know he will be smiling right now. I guess I met him just at the right time and I now get my once in a lifetime chance to realise my dream. I feel very blessed.

I needed a place to stay in the city where my University is and today that issue sorted itself out as well. I need to learn to let go more often and to stop trying to predict the outcome of everything, as in the end it will all be as it will be. Que sera x

Thinking v Overthinking

I have always been a ‘deep thinker’. Ever since I was small I remember thinking and worrying about the smallest detail and the ‘what ifs’. I try to predict the outcome of every action I take, every decision I make is turned over in my head a million times. I do it so much that I am fed up with myself in a way. I try and hold the reigns on my life so tight it almost stops me from moving in any direction.

Today I was wondering if this is something in my nature or my personality I can’t change, or if there is a way for me to throw caution to the wind and take some risks? I always play it safe and always consider others before me. Is this something I can learn? How can I change that part of me that is stopping me from stepping out and becoming the person I could be?